". . . a condition of spiritual freedom and full psychic citizenship. The ability to reinvent oneself, to reinvent the space around you to reflect your status in the world, to project images of a new world and new generations . . . . "
Sunday, February 24, 2002
Saturday, February 23, 2002
Wednesday, February 20, 2002
F94 (I was new to the idea that there even was such a creature as a "fiber artist". I took surface design and construction in order to see what type of fiber artist I might be - S95-F95, S96-F96, S97/BFA completed - F97, S98-F98, S99-F99, S00-F00, S01-F01, S02: NOW! I feel like I've been in a time warp. I guess the problem is I don't feel that I have enough work to justify that much time. What it means is I haven't been on-Track! in fact most of that time I didn't even have a "track".
I feel like a slacker. It's been 5 whole years since I completed my BFA. I got over the fact that it took me a lifetime to complete the BFA - I had lots of good reasons for taking that long - work, child, etc. I'm not concerned that the MA won't be finished until S03 that was deliberate. It's just that 5 years is so long.
In 5 years some things should have been accomplished. But I guess that only applies if you had a plan. If you didn't have a plan and things happened would they "count"? Would you/I know to say, "I accomplished so and so?" or would the things that happened just be things that happened? I have a plan now - actually/truthfully I only have a partial plan! what to do? of course the correct answer is construct the rest of the plan.
It's my bedtime - my blog clock is saying 7:57 but it's 10:57 - I thought I fixed that. What if I have bad dreams about my lack of forward motion? my partial plan? my inability to get it all together as of yesterday?
Okay, I'll fix it - all of it - the plan - the 5 years of seeming nothingness - It seems large because I'm sleepy and I get silly when I'm sleepy. Tomorrow at 5 am or so it'll all make sense, it'll be fine, I'll be able to recognize that I've done plenty. Please, don't let me want to make a list!! Save me from my list making self.
At any rate I finished the design on the giante mancala/oware board and I collaged and sent a new bio out, I worked on the paper that's due next Tuesday, I fixed dinner, I gathered old magazines to take to a high school art teacher who wants them (I even went through them first and pulled out the articles that I was keeping the entire magazine for), I gathered and organized my fiberarts magazines (I need to do a lot of catch up reading! I feel that need even more now that I've discovered that I've been in the twilight zone), I started writing a "start writing" guide (for myself and others - I'll finish it and post it to the Novelist area of Multipurposewoman.org before the 21st - I didn't plan to start writing it but now that I have I'll have to be added to the bottom of the list - which reminds me that I didn't add any of the writing projects, except The Creation of Aurora Painter, to the list) OH WELL! that's all I remember doing. And it'll have to be enough - IT IS ENOUGH - AT THIS POINT IT'S MORE THAN ENOUGH.
until next time, keep your multi-projects on-track!, stay true to your purpose even if it seems that you're not up to it, remember that you're a super woman but not superwoman.
Tuesday, February 19, 2002
Fantasies
I have this recurring rescue fantasy that millions of people I don't know, thousands of people I barely know and tens of people I do know send me money so I can pay off the student loans I've been accumulating for more years than I feel comfortable mentioning. You can be one of those people.Monday, February 18, 2002
Well, I'll be in my studio being an artist all day. FINALLY. I'm primarily working on The Code since I dyed the background fabric. I went looking for digital cameras yesterday because I like the way The Code 's materials look and I want to start documenting the making of Blue Hand Junction. But yesterday was Sunday and this is Kentucky and a lot of places are still opening at noon! I was up at 6 something and out of the house by 8:30 with an attitude about something totally unrelated.
Anyway, Target opens at 8, has a nice selection of digital camers and a brochure with info about each. Plus I was armed with the info from the net and my Consumers Report. Alas I didn't have enough money plus I wasn't really in decision making mode. But later this week after a check or two comes my way I'll be taking pictures of the work. Which means I'll have to add "make site load quicker" to my list.
I'll also be working some on Prescriptions for (what ails) the Daughters of Eve. That piece is pushy. Things that belong to it keep coming to me - a pair of diamond shaped mirrored candle holders for the ends of the 13 point fence piece FB found and this morning I broke a heart-shaped stained glass candle holder. I gathered the pieces and put them on the desk in the bedroom and FB said "aren't you going to throw that away?" Why doesn't he know me better than that?
Sunday, February 17, 2002
Tug of War by Nikka Costa
There are times in our lives
When our hears fear our minds
We can't afford to ignore
What our hearts are beating for
(chorus)
My soul wants to go one way
But my heart and mind playing a tug of war with me baby
cut to the truth and watch it bleed
and inthe wounds just what we need
It's everywhere if we dare
to trust the fall to lead you there
(chorus)
Let me out of this cage
I'm begging for mercy I'm being your slave
What do you want me to see, my eyes are inflamed
With the rage that's among us when we come of age
There's nothing I don't know, just hasn't come to me yet
We're only trying to remember what we chose to forget
everybody's a child that is open and free
If we can trust ourselves to be indiscreet
With our love
copyright 2000 littlescreama Music
Friday, February 15, 2002
Thursday, February 14, 2002
And I'm ecstatic to announce that I finally dyed the boot pellon and other fabric I needed to continue with The Code and Prescriptions for (what ails) the daughters of Eve.
Wednesday, February 13, 2002
I'm also added a link to the list to the Novelist section of Multipurposewoman.org
Monday, February 11, 2002
Saturday, February 09, 2002
If I were writing a column for syndication I think I'd focus on defining vague terms like "truly hungry", "6-8 glasses of water", "weight problem", "at-risk child", . . . There are so many phrases out there that are so generic that they're barely useful.
more on this thought later. I'm off to action/color field paint with families at the Speed Art Museum.
Wednesday, February 06, 2002
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until next time, enjoy your multi-blessings , draw strength from your purpose, introduce yourself to an interesting woman.
Tuesday, February 05, 2002
Thank the Sacred I have enough wherewithal to have a mental prohibition in place against starting any new anything.
Monday, February 04, 2002
Sunday, February 03, 2002
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